Davey Gurr

o hai

Poverty Here I Come!!

does it make me a bad person because I don't care about money?

I'm still alive, in case you've forgotten or assumed otherwise about me.

the year's winding down, and so am I. it's been quite the journey, with 3 exams down and 2 to go, im leavin right at the very last day.
then
I'm coming home.

Longest ask I've ever taken up.
9:20 pm to 10:30 am. longest assignment of my life.
it took 13 hours. 4 people, and 13 fucking hours. I still don't think i understood the assignment right, every damn essay I've seen has been completely different to each other. I't was an beyond complicated, it was just brutal. Smoking breaks keep my brain alive. I never knew it was possible to work for that long on something.
Philosophy essay, that in itself is an opposite statement and a difficult task, but no, this is the most challenging event of my academic carrier yet. Far beyond the agonizing music performances: vocal test with pneumonia, the guitar test that neither of us had known about, including the proposed (or mandatory as they like to put it) material and shitty equipment. Or the history presentation I was so hungover for that I knocked over the teachers mini-podium and a desk just getting up there, and couldn't talk much due to impending vomit attacks. A tragity of an English isu to the point that I didn't actually do (or know how or even what and when) and had to improv for half an hour without even a proper topic. This beats asking a senior student for directions, while denouncing my last teacher, sharing some very 'politically incorrect' views, and swearing more than an Irvine Welsh novel, and then going to class only to realize she's the prof. Definaely beats going to cultural studies for the first time in.... a shamefully long time, and being the one of 2 people there who didn't know a fucking thing and managed to come out on top for the tutorial. It beats the spitting and the teacher incident, and the reign of Terror that was probation. this beats walking into class and being unexpectedly handed a midterm.

Never will i let this happen again. No. it doesn't matter what you put into your system, the body can only last so long. to make things even better, I'm broke. I'm seriously so poor I can't afford toilet paper. it's been a difficult week. But it's over. and once again i've managed to unexpectedly survive.

today, i am no longer a teenager. does this mean no more teen angst for me?

Oh dearest livejournal, I haven't abandoned you yet. It's becoming almost painful to tear myself away from this place. but do it I shall. I need to come home, I miss my old friends, and there is someone in particular I haven't seen in months and miss dearly. the freedom I've been able to achieve is wonderful. The people here are Amazing, its truly an experience I whouldn't't trade for the world. I love it.
And to think, I almost didn't go, school is something I've never taken seriously, and now I've been given such a chance, it has. My marks have increased a lot from what they were last year, which is surprising. and I made record on how early I was put on probation. go me! I was quite sick last weekend though, first time falling very ill without my mommy to take care of me. want early as easy. specially since I got since (from eating expired food) right after I was nearly fully recovered from one hell of a hangover. I love having to go to bars and never pay for a drink. hehe. its always awkward to go on facebook the next day and see a bunch of pictures I had absolutely no recollection of. "dude...am I... am I biting you?" "dunno dude... am I...coking you?" good times.
I need to get another job. I need ideas for Christmases gifts too. I don't know how I'm going to manage being kept home for so long! but one things certain, new years is sure to be awesome, then again anything that's not a repeat of last years would be nothing sort of a good time.

I'm coming home for thanksgiving. Who knew university could ever involve so much reading? And my english essay: if there's more than 2 gramatical or speling errors, your mark starts at a c and works its way down. the frame of my chair appears to be quite bent, but i found an important piece that broke off. Friday's lookin promising, even though i can't drink. I don't plan to come back anytime too soon after this, so if you wanna hangout just drop me a line, I miss everyone tons! hopefully I'll get to see most of you. hopefully!

this is probably the closest to a picture update i'll ever do, as i cant get anything off my phone.

but heres something from the weekend before!

full uptade coming soon... if i can ever finish reading?

the time has finally come. Good Luck everyone!

hope to hear from you all soon.

summer's almost over. I'm really not thinking too much, or moreso preparing for moving away. the entire ordeal is exciting, but still feels too far away.
My sister's getting married in a few weeks, and knowing my sister's friends, its gonna be one hell of an after party. I should start looking for someone to go to that with too.
more than anything, my goal for the remainder of the summer is to see people i haven't. especially since almost everyone is leaving. There's still some things that need to be accomplished, but there's plenty of summer left.

got caught by the cops last night.
I kinda managed to doge the bullet so to speak, but two others weren't so lucky.
hopefully it'll all work out.
my parents leave for their cruise soon. I'm excited having the house to my self for a while again.
...and my lip is almost healed.

Finished! i'm done high school. forever. such a relief!

I had my doubts to whether or not i was gonna make the final average, but thank God i did. Its really been a rockin' 5 years. and we made it. we finally made it. I've learned a lot, and thank you all those who helped me along the way.
I was gonna originally delete this when i finished school, its just be bitching and full of angst. But i think I'll keep it. Live has been getting progressively better (for the most part) and hopefully I'll be doing some interesting enough; worthy of a full read.
More than anything i want my lip rig back. i miss it terribly.
summers begun, as has my renewed search for a job. i got an interview comin up, but they want me on contract for 3 months, so thats not looking too promising since i wont be here that long. The search will move on!
I'm going to Trent this fall, and can't wait. Its gonna be an adventure, and you all must visit me.

5 years. 5 long years.
and it finally comes down to this.
wish me luck. im gonna need it.

I'm going to a wedding on the 6th of July, and would love to have some company.
anyone wanna come with?

i got rejected differed from Guelph today, but I've been accepted by Trent.

I'm holding off just a little bit longer and hopefully I'l hear something from Laurier. Hopefully something good. It's the only school with the program i want (Cultural studies) and its small and accessible, and just...something seeps to fit, y'a know? I've given up with Carleton: any university that can't even send an email isn't getting my money, and after what happened on the open house at Guelph.

But it just occurred to me, i need a minimum of a 70% average. I don't think i have that. I don't know if its possible for me to achieve that at this point. I'm seriously getting worried. I need this. I need it so very much. It's more than just going to school, its reassurance that i haven't pissed the last few years of my life away. It's my chance to get out of Whitby and make a fresh start. It's my last chance at independence. I need this.
I wish there was some place i could just hide away till it was all resolved.

This is what I brought you
This you can keep
This is what I brought
You may forget me
I promise to depart

This is what I thought
I thought you'd need me
This is what I thought
So think me naive
I promise you a heart
You promise to keep
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep

we're long overdue for a table session.

its been far, far too long. So let's gather 'round.

you know who you are.

“I flee to decemberunderground. As you exhale, I breathe in the water underground and I'll grow pale without you.
decemberunderground is a time and a place. It is where the cold can huddle together in darkness and isolation. It is a community of those detached and disillusioned who flee to love, like winter, in the recesses below the rest of the world."

This has been a fantastic weekend. Jordan sent me some new afi live footage. Amazing is all i can say. I can't wait till Decemberunderground comes out.
Friday i was just having a terrible day. Seeing Steven Louis was pretty cool though. Most importantly of all i got to see Kat! everyone else at school left so i waited with her for a taxi. seeing her again totally made my day. That night was just an adventure in itself.

Went to a kegger Saturday. Saw some people i haven't in a while, whom ive missed. I met the love of my life. best person ever. She gave me cigarettes and we went out and talked about (good) music, and she made fun of people with me. She's just as fond of the word 'cunt' as i. Coolest person ever. It was perfect. But its a shame i'll never see her again.

Its been recovery all day today. and this week includes 3 birthdays and Mothers day. My chair has 2 flat tires, and 3 bald ones. Also i gotta go shopping for my suit really soon. Gotta go to the docters again to get more of the scar tissue removed. I want to have my piercing back for prom. Hopefully il even get a call from Jesse too.